In Sunday school today we were talking about desires and how you pray for your desires. But then we were also talking about how if you have been praying for desires and they haven't been being fulfilled then you should pray to change your desires.
So... I thought about what I had been praying for quite a bit lately.
Lame huh?
I'm just a loser who has to pray for a boyfriend and still doesn't get one. :P
But in all honestly... lately I have been feeling desperate for a boyfriend.
Which isn't a good or pleasant feeling.
So in Sunday school I realized that maybe instead of praying for my desire to have a boyfriend to be fulfilled, that I should just change my prayers to not have that desire anymore!
At first it seemed like an answer to my problems!
And I was super excited to pray about it and not have these forever alone feelings overwhelming me.
Excited to feel normal again.
But I got this yucky feeling inside.
And even started to feel sick.
Which didn't make sense.
Was it just a coincidence?
Or was it the Spirit telling me that I can continue praying for a boyfriend and that I'll get one?
I'm thinking the former.
Because the latter doesn't sound all too plausible.
Why would the Holy Ghost prompt me to pray for a boyfriend when I'm technically not supposed to have a steady boyfriend until college?
It was just somewhat confusing.
But is doesn't seem like much of a coincidence, because as soon as my thought began to say "So, I should continue praying for a boyfriend?" the yucky sicky feeling stopped and I felt normal again.
I honestly don't know what this means.
But I guess I'll just continue praying as I was before.
And if an answer doesn't come soon, then I'll pray to change my desires.
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